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Vacation Brain

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I’m currently on vacation right now. At this very moment I’m at Disneyland. Wait, that’s not true. There’s a time difference. I’m probably getting ready or if I’m lucky still sleeping. I doubt that last one though.

So to take thank you for showing up, and to take your mind off the fact that I’m having fun in California and DISNEY, here are some cute pictures of our kittens (not so much kittens anymore).

Meet Percy and Oliver

And if that wasn’t enough, then here’s a tiny snippet to tide you over until May 4th when Infinite Azure is released.

Enjoy!

“Baby . . . I can’t,” he said.

Turning, I stared at the pain in his green eyes and as much as it broke me, a blaze of anger burned through me too. “Can’t what?” I asked, suddenly indignant at this idea that he would make me feel guilty for doing what had been necessary. “Can’t stand that I made a decision without you? That I made the hard decision to save you instead of myself?” I said through gritted teeth. Warmth streamed down my face and as I tasted salt, I realized I was crying. “Can’t handle that faced with the idea of Baba Yaga getting her hands on you and using you to get what she wanted was something I couldn’t live with? Please help me because I need to understand what you can’t.”

“I can’t watch you die again,” he said, every word a knife in my gut.

“Dean.” I wanted desperately to make him feel better but there wasn’t anything I could do, really, to ease his sense of helplessness. “I’m sorry for a lot of things but not that I got the men I love out of there. You would have done the same.”

His green eyes flashed the bright blue of his wolf and I realized that at the base of all of his anger and hurt was the knowledge that he or Patrick would have done the same exact thing.

“That’s it, isn’t it? You would have done the same thing. Patrick would have done the same. Any one of us would have done exactly what I did to save the others,” I said, choking up as the words tumbled out of my mouth. “And that means we’re all compromised.”

You’re welcome! Just remember, I’m at Disney having a great time.

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NANOWRIMO

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Welp, its that time again.

The end of October always feels as if I’m standing on a precipise and moments away from falling over. Not because of the impending holidays or all the baking i’m going to have to do. Nope. Its the 30 day sprint to get something accomplished for National Novel Writing Month in November. I’m not sure why I feel so much pressure for this. It’s voluntary. I don’t have to do it.

I succumb to pressure this most years when i’m not already bogged down in either editing or finishing a pre-existing book. It’s a good jump start but most of the time, I end up feeling a bit like a failure. I never meet the goal of 55,000 words – okay, once. I’ve done it once. Mostly because this is at the worst possible time of year. Who the fuck picked November anyway. April! April would be a great month for this shit.

Also, they categorize 55,000 words as novel length. . .which is technically true. However, my books run anywhere from 90,000 to 110,000, so that arbitrary number feels wrong but should feel doable. However, since I can’t actually seem to hit that number, it feels doubly wrong with a splash of failure mixed in there. So, that’s nice for me.

So, here we are again. On the cusp of November and I just turned in Infinite Azure for editing and stuff. I won’t hear back from Debby @ Soul Mate Publishing for another month at least. I’m technically free for November. . . I guess. Once again, I have bent under the weight of NANOWRIMO pressure and have set up my project to mock me as I log my pitiful word counts each day.

Here’s my plan. I’m going back into one of my old projects, mostly because I’m sitting on 26,000 words and it’s driving me insane that it’s not done. This project has been the topic of previous Nanowrimo years but I’m going in with a plan this time. I think the reason, this project went nowhere fast the previous go arounds, is because I didn’t have the plot flushed out enough. I’m working on the plot this week so that it won’t be so daunting when I go back in to put words on the page. I don’t think I’ll average 1667 words per day but maybe I can get close. Even if it gets this project back on track, I’ll count that as a win.